lonely blue

last weekend i hopped off the plane at lax with a dream n my wolf t shirt. i maxed out my credit card n was back in california for tropicalia.

freedom is a burden

jobs don't call me back n all of my boyfriends leave me on read

days of youth

pictures from a day at the lake in central park

n other thoughts from the week

lost in my bedroom

i kno i promised i would blog more and usually im really good at sticking to my promises. or i hope i am. but i've been lost in the transition from los angeles to new york city. or maybe the correct term is return.

a return to the city. a return to school. a return to a preview of what it will be like when im actually Grown. a return to the second part of my life.

keeping up with the long lost kardashian // part 8: dizzy

cancer season was harsh. a lil too harsh if im being honest. it was the most i cried in a while and i felt that there was no need to write about anything. or else it was just going to be me crying. and i mean my writing is usually like that, but cancer season made it different. however, abandoning my blog so early in the summer meant abandoning it throughout the entire summer. now theres only a week left and the urge to write again is creeping upon me. so here we are, catching up once again.

summer mood

 

as u should all kno by now, i have Been waiting for summer in califonia. mayb its because best coast was my fav band for the longest, but there is just something about summer days at the beach. a few weeks ago i grab my closest friends and headed up pch towards malibu. we stopped at a quiet, small, relaxing beach n made friends with randoms who screamed along to joyce manor with us after our rotation. here are some shots from then.

the blind leading the blind // part 10

1. yes being dramatic is part of ur brand but do urself a favor n stop convincing urself that everyone hates u

so sad so sexy

i buy a few items from unif n suddenly ion kno how to act!

sun's out

during my time in new york, warm weather became foreign to me. i remember the first month or two were hot, but those seemed to be long gone. my ankles and thumbs had a new constant state of being numb. but one weekend before my time was up, the sun decided to come out n play. so naturally we raided whole foods, grabbed wine from trader joes, and boarded the subway w all of our stuff to central park. and we also took a scroll to washington park with slurpees and mikes hard lemonade bc 7-11 was all out of smirnoff ice. here are pictures from then n some in between stuff.

boys

im a firm believer in filling the void with reassurance, attention, n validation. its why i have a tinder. i get off on swiping right on strangers who have also swiped right on me n having conversations that takes days to reply to. i mean ill even go out with some of these people. but then im ultimately left with no other option then to avoid them in my dorm elevator, dining hall, n washington square park.

keeping up with the long lost kardashian // part 7: ramblings of a dying adolescence

i feel like i've been lost with words and haven't rly shared any posts that isn't pictures. it's weird because i don't consider myself a photographer n would much rather be a writer. but i've been stuck with a block n can't think of ideas/topics or what to even SAY ! 

so let's catch up a bit for now

im content

just got film developed so here's photos from feb - april. highlights from valentines day, an indie dance party, n one of my best friend's 19th birthday. some in between stuff as well. just like usual,  don't really recall taking most of these. but hope y'all still enjoy, here ya go.

new york city

i guess this is some sort of a love letter to new york city. i only have 3 weeks left of this semester n i'm actually sad. it went by almost too fast n i still remember every moment from welcome week. without a doubt im glad i chose nyu and nyc because even tho i don't kno what the Fuck im doing, i think i might be in the right place. anyways this was a mini essay assigned for my writing class, but i kinda like it n wanted to share. here ya go.

nostalgia

nostalgia sure is a bitch!

the blind leading the blind // part 9

1. everyone is a shitty person, but do us all a favor and own up to being a shitty person. there's no need to front because we all are Shitty, but if u pretend like you aren't your actually so much shittier!

fence

a collection of photos from winter break to the ending of janurary. a couple months late, but bare with me. hope u guys enjoy some drunken 35mm try hard shots. i wish i knew more about photography, but this is it for now.

doom generation

when I first started this blog, I had the intentions of being a fashion blogger. whatever that even means. I was going to talk about runways, trends, and share my own outfits that I believed were ~fashionable~ along the way, somehow that plan was lost. and after being in my fashion and globalization course for about a month, I am glad as hell that that idea is long gone.

waiting room

i don't know how, but i kinda forgot how to blog.

the blind leading the blind // part 8

1. don't look for a relationship, but do everything a relationship consist of while continuing to call them ur friend until u accidentally flirt too much and the fake relationship becomes real

lil thing

wearing a skirt in the middle of winter, no biggie